Days go by

The badge that my sister made me make (exactly 1 week ago) to give to all of this year's S.5 students.

It was our last day of S.5 normal classes today. Photos were taken, some tears were shed. Mocks will start tomorrow (which I should be now preparing for, hahaha). It's really hard to believe. I don't know what to think. I dunno, but it's like a piece of me has been taken away. The problem is, I get too attached. When little things change, a part of me feels emptier.

I haven't listened to music for 3 whole days. As a music lover, this is quite alarming for me. The thing is, I'm now too scared to listen because the songs suddenly have new meanings. I'm too scared to get stupidly emotional while listening to them.

I would really rather not dwell on the things that don't make me happy. Sometimes though, the mind wanders. I'll have to try to keep my head preoccupied by other things instead. We have Mocks to busy ourselves with, anyway. And then, the CEs themselves. Then, while we're waiting for our results, we're gonna graduate, part ways, look for part-time jobs, look for new schools and get ready for the next school year. People will leave, new people will enter our lives. In 5 months, so many things will change. Even though I'm staying in the same school for the next school year, things will be different. It won't be the same anymore.

Too fast, too fast.

But it's life. Things will come, become a part of your life, and go. Things change for the better. I'm not ready to let go yet. But then again, I have never been ready for these kinds of things.

I really do hope that everyone will do well in their mocks, their CEs, and everything else the future holds. I hope everyone will be happy with the new things that will come along their way. Soon, I'll become attached to something new, and the past will be the past. I will be happy for the things and people that had once made me happy, although they will soon be only a memory.